I feel distracted, having a lot of trouble keeping up.<\/p>\n
Basically I’m very disappointed in myself.<\/p>\n
Hopefully I’m not coming down with anything serious, but I don’t feel well. I’m kind of nauseous, with heart burn and gas problems.<\/p>\n
Thoughts going through my head are along the lines of “gosh I hate my body.” At first specific body parts; my digestive system, my stomach, all the areas that are uncomfortable as I try to go to sleep. But then I have to conclude that it’s not just those parts, it’s everything. In the words of BASEketball<\/em>, [my body] was a team effort and it took everybody working together to lose this one.<\/p>\n It’s not really my body that sucks. Considering what I’ve done to it, I could probably be in worse shape. That’s what really makes me hate myself. I could probably overcome these ‘problems’ of mine with a little hard work, some new attitudes about things. But for nearly 20 years, I haven’t. And that’s such a long period of time with no real beneficial change in my diet or exercise programs, that I can’t help but look at it like its never going to happen.<\/p>\n I’m going to be like this, or worse, for the rest of my life.<\/p>\n I don’t see any speed bumps or course corrections in the foreseeable future.<\/p>\n Anyway, still half way finished on a bunch of stuff I started last week, from new Radio EdSoft Films, to the reviews of Ghost Rider<\/em> and The Secret World Of Arriety<\/em> And photos too I guess.<\/p>\n Tomorrow is another holiday, dunno if I’ll be online or not. Hope you’ll bother to check in. I feel distracted, having a lot of trouble keeping up. Basically I’m very disappointed in myself. Hopefully I’m not coming down with anything serious, but I don’t feel well. I’m kind of nauseous, with heart burn and gas problems. Thoughts going through my head are along the lines of “gosh I hate my body.” At […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[8,5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-164","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-blog","category-site-news"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/164","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=164"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/164\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":166,"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/164\/revisions\/166"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=164"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=164"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=164"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\n‘Til Monday. Or zzzz, woah I literally typed zzzz because I’m falling asleep.
\nLaters<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"