{"id":496,"date":"2013-01-27T22:02:56","date_gmt":"2013-01-28T06:02:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edsoftfilms.com\/?p=496"},"modified":"2013-01-27T22:02:56","modified_gmt":"2013-01-28T06:02:56","slug":"seriously-should-i-get-a-haircut-or-not","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/?p=496","title":{"rendered":"Seriously, should I get a haircut or not?"},"content":{"rendered":"
\"Three<\/a>
Have people always had these feelings or are they products of our time?<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

Image above taken from Three Panel Soul.<\/a><\/p>\n

Funny thing happened last weekend. It was a three day weekend, I had fun times, and even got a little creative work done. It seemed like a good balance of time spent for work and pleasure. And most interestingly, I didn’t think about my job once.<\/p>\n

The trouble with that is, it made going back to work even worse. I remembered for one weekend what it was like to not have one of these shitty day jobs. I’m a few weeks from making it out of my probationary period and already I’m thinking about quitting. Of course, I can’t quit now. I just got a job three blocks from home.<\/p>\n

That’s what I don’t understand, though. I’m doing the same job, around the corner from my house, yet I feel just about as tired as I felt when I was working in San Mateo. <\/p>\n

It’s still a positive, this transfer to El Cerrito, I suppose. I’m certainly using less gasoline, spending less money. So why don’t I notice the two-to-four extra hours I’m not spending in rush hour traffic? Part of it is probably the overtime I have to take in this office, but that can’t account for all of it. <\/p>\n

Maybe it’s because, while driving in those conditions was hellish, it was still me getting out in the world. I got to see the city every day, and usually the sunrise\/sunset. I got to listen to music or podcasts for a good hour+ everyday. Now what do I do? Leisurely walk home and watch TV? Even with the best TV, that’s no good.<\/p>\n

Tangentially, I could stand to do something to improve my health. I thought about trying swimming, but I tried that before. I tried ‘running,’ but a few shin splints here, a little sickness there, and how easy it becomes to abandon a routine.<\/p>\n

How am I supposed to ever improve my health if the first steps cause crippling pain? The only way I can see it happening is if someone else pushes me, and at over 300 pounds, that’s hard to do. I know I’m not up to the task.<\/p>\n

Oh, P.S.
\nI subscribed to this service called MoviePass<\/a>, and I’ve had it a few weeks now, but I haven’t used it yet!<\/p>\n

Part of the problem is, Fuck You, It’s January<\/a>. But part of it is, simply, I’m either too tired or too depressed to find the motivation to do anything. At least by myself…<\/p>\n

A theme is emerging in all the things I’ve been writing about here. A non-committal to anything. I can’t commit to my job, can’t commit to my health, can’t even commit to a place to go for lunch. I feel frozen in this zone of non- motivation. Running on autopilot, or on fumes.<\/p>\n

I need to figure these problems out…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Image above taken from Three Panel Soul. Funny thing happened last weekend. It was a three day weekend, I had fun times, and even got a little creative work done. It seemed like a good balance of time spent for work and pleasure. And most interestingly, I didn’t think about my job once. The trouble […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[8,131],"tags":[152,139],"class_list":["post-496","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-blog","category-work-2","tag-blog","tag-job"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/496","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=496"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/496\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":502,"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/496\/revisions\/502"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=496"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=496"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.edsoftfilms.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=496"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}